Knots

You know that awful feeling of hopelessness and despair that occurs when something bad happens in your life? You feel like crying every second and no matter how sad the thoughts in your head make you feel, you keep replaying them over and over and over...as if you've been stabbed in the stomach once and then just keep turning the knife.

That's how I feel right now. I can't seem to get these knots out of my stomach. I'm not sure whether to be stone-faced or completely breakdown. Every time I look at food, I shutter. I can't focus on my work, even though I have ungodly amounts of it to do.

I hate these knots.