GMAT Hell

Last year Mike convinced me to start studying for the GMAT. My mind wasn’t completely into it and after spending a ridiculous sum of money on a Manhattan GMAT course, I spent the next two months haphazardly trying to study for it. I’d spend an hour “sort of” studying and then wonder why I would get most of the practice problems wrong. When I didn’t have a book in my hand, I’d stress over not being prepared and when I did have the book in my hand, I’d procrastinate actually opening it. I just wasn’t into it.

Now it’s a year later and I’ve found myself studying for it again. This time I have a rigid study calendar to follow and have been (surprisingly) doing well on my practice problems. I’m still freaking out about it because I’m so awful at test taking. I know a lot of people say that, but I really am. I always narrow down each problem to two answer choices and then psych myself out and always choose the wrong one. I frequently am aware that I’m choosing the wrong answer choice but convince myself that the test is just trying to trick me and therefore the right answer couldn’t actually be the choice that I think it is. It doesn’t make any sense but, nonetheless, that’s what I do.

The deadline I’ve set is October 30th. Halloween and my birthday immediately follow this deadline and who really wants to be studying for GMAT during these celebrations? I’m not sure when I’ll apply to school but I suppose it’s better to just get this terrible exam out of the way, right? Ugh…this better be worth it.